I noticed a trend with the downturns in my mood, and it always comes back to the same trigger, women. I cannot pin point what it is exactly about them, though I have some strong hunches, and none of them paint women in a bright light. It is something that was not always there. Or I never noticed for long enough to acknowledge it. Either way, it is evident now, and I am doing something about it.
There is something marginally positive and real about the Red Pill/Manosphere/MGTOW/PUA/Etc… movements. Especially given my experiences with women, which started from a very early age. However, it is severely lacking in many ways. I have seen too many of the same trends come from these types of ideas. Men who go down the rabbit hole do not come out. They stay there and live a perpetual life of detachment and misery.
I recently poured over this guy’s blog, and it was more relatable than anything I had ever read regarding women and dating. I too have been through scores of women, and had the same feelings and experiences from it. This lifestyle and outlook takes its toll by sucking you further into a dark, lonely hole created by the aforementioned ideas. A hole that I recently discovered I was in.
Hence the purge.
The purge of online/app dating. Not pursuing every girl who gives me the slightest interest. Not reading anything relating to dating, women, self-improvement, and being a man.
I have always advocated following the gut. I also addressed how it is difficult to use that other sense if you do not know how to listen to it. Cognitive bias is a real thing, and I fell prey to it. Everything I read and experienced relating to women and modern dating made so much sense. Throughout all of this, my gut said, “Yes, this is absolute truth.” The truth is not that ugly.
There is peace in truth.
Some may argue that there is no truth, but there is. It is not as common as many think/believe it to be, but it exists.
There is definitely a false. In this universe always seeking to find balance, there must be truth as well.
So truth exists, and in it there is peace. I am going to quiet my mind down and see if I cannot find it. The only way to do it is to purge all the knowledge and experience which I have accumulated to this point. Part selective memory, part re-framing my experiences, part discontinuing previous trends.
Tall order, but it is a start.